98th
19.09.2010
Struggle
15.09.2010
Never did I thought that I will
be sandwiched in the middle so soon.
You are right. Why do we have to go thru
such ugly ordeal at the beginning of the start of
our lives together, I will always wonder.
I hope after today, things will take a turn for
the better. If it does not, either I will personally see
to this or better still let Abah take over.
I feel very guilty to you and your family and
I know you are aware. Your family is awesomely
wonderful treating me like a princess.
Actually, here on I already start to worry.
Worry about how things will be between you guys in
the future. I am afraid that it will be so cold and I
really fear that things will remain cold.
While I love seeing you and Abah so
warm and comfortable, I do hope it will get
there between you and Mama.
Yes, I admit, I am more open to Mother than
my own, but like you say, she is still y blood mother
and we have to learn to change her.
While we have to struggle September,
I pray it will end on a good note.
I love you and again, I cannot apologise enough
for what she put you through just so we can go legal.
It is not just what you stand for but also what you fall for.
